Nkem Light

She didn't understand any of it― art that is. And that's what he was, art. A walking, thinking, breathing, talking piece of art. & he allowed her into his world, and inadvertently ignited her right mind. & she loved his art, everything about it. This unread woman who had been trying to teach herself to open her mind and eyes to aesthetics unfamiliar to her, grew fond of everything he created; everything he loved. Mostly because she found pieces of him in them and they were keys to his soul. That's how she fell in love with art; with the world; with him. He had the ability to touch, open and awaken her senses in a way no one else was able to. Senses she didn't know she had. Challenging everything she thought. Nullifying every fact she was taught. Becoming all things to her. He taught her science through feeling. That was his art; his ability to mold her. She was clay in his hands, and he sculpted her... & she became

"remember the time we'd set the earth on fire? stick with me and we'll burn it up" - Danny "are you finished? now will you leave?" -Anna (lines from the film Anna Lucasta ) some just come around for a love letter my heart has never been on my sleeve so what drew you to me? my heart has never been on my sleeve so why do you think you can hold it? my heart has never been on my sleeve so why are you looking for love here? are you looking for a challenge? my heart is blacker than coal with an anchor that has never been detached so why are you here? don't lose your hand trying to pick up my heart. you're digging for a treasure that doesn't exist. what are your true intentions? do you think you're worthy? capable of softening my heart? some just come around for a love letter my mind has never been swayed my mind has settled my most intense emotions into ash so again, why are you here? hope didn'

then you find out you're replaceable despite your rarity, your uniqueness, your energy that moment is humbling because you have to come to terms with the fact that there isn't a scale to measure your quality your worth― something you valued high is now irrelevant there's no number, just relativity no, there's a number and it's one. you are one; as whole as one could be one of one but among many others & the same person who loved you as a whole is willing to sacrifice what makes you complete you now feel reduced to that speck of an human being swimming in a sea of billions of beings & the only thing that has value is the price it'll cost to lose you & you learn it's a price they're willing to pay that is the day you learn that you are appraised only after you are no longer wanted

"We almost always forgive those we understand." -Mikhail Lermontov This is why communication is important and one's ability to be able to express themselves and make a sound argument. When you're able to do all the things previously stated complicated, poignant situations can be defused. It's not a good defense argument with copious amounts of supporting evidence to prove who's right and who's wrong. It's for the accused to express themselves in a lucid way so the hearer can understand why things transpired the way that it did. That doesn't mean they have to agree but rather can comprehend what prompted the reasoning that affected the outcome. When that level is reached clarity is manifested. Understanding is what allows us to be empathetic. Yes, empathetic towards the one who hurt us, intentionally or unintentionally. For me, a resentful person, I've found that the best way for me to be able to move on and completely for

"People talk about 'don't let anyone take your happy' but I feel like that's not really what we should be saying.  We should be saying 'don't let anyone take your clarity.' Happiness is an emotion and that's going to go up and down especially if you're in relationships, whether personal or professional. But your clarity is your instinct and your intuition to do what's best for you and that can never waiver. When you're in a relationship, any type of relationship, tha t makes that waiver, that's a problem. Don't let anyone take your clarity. Don't let anyone cloud your ability to see and feel clearly the path to your happiness to your contentment to your purpose.  So if you find yourself in a situation where you no longer become clear to your purpose, your role or the intentions of the situation then that is your indicator to know it's time to get the f― out of that situation." -Aman

Artist: Debra Cartwright "What does growth feel like to you?" Stagnant. Suffocating. The most uncomfortable feeling I've ever felt. In some moments I'm not sure if I'm growing or breaking. I feel myself falling apart but I'm not sure if I'm shedding, producing a new layer, or if I'm broken. Simply, I feel raw. Completely exposed to the world and every element. I don't recognize myself, physically or mentally. It's the most difficult thing I've ever gone through. One thing I can't deny, and it's the reminder I have to reassure me that this is growth, and it's the aches. The aches are growing pains and I remind myself that the pain has the potential to birth a new strength. Everyday I wake up amazed by the fact that I'm up to see a new day and that I made it through yesterday; I survived. One day I asked myself "How?", and that's when I knew it was because I had become stronger.